wad is my life like now ? MESS it is in a total mess ! I have hurt a friend i should not have hurt ! Just what th hell am i doing now ! I cant forget th incident ! Thou it is over like so many days ago and thou i have cried many times those feelings are still there ! Just what th hell am i doing ? I dont know ! Maybe is because th previous problem tht cause me like tht ? But I know tht is an excuse ! I am really breaking down soon ! I need someone tht I cam talk to ! But just who th hell is it ? I cant trust anyone now ! At first i trust you , but now ? I have to think twice before I start speaking to you ! Now I cant even think of you cause I will cry , not even to mention speak to you . I know tht you are hurt but why dont you wan to tell me ? Am I th one tht hurt you ? Am I th one tht cause you to be or act like this ? Am I even fit to be your friend ? You help me once , just once ! But you told me tht you will be here for me , can I trust you ? I choose not to think about tht queation first and trusted you , but you lie to me ! Is it fun ? Is it fun to see me fell hard ? Is it fun to see me cry ? Is it fun to see my tears ? Are all these fun ? I wan an answer real bad ! But now is your turn choose not to answer me . Can I have an answer please ? Just this time I wan an answer , one and last time . I am here pleading you and begging you for an answer do you know ? I hope so cause it really hurt me alot !